Spring Break is coming up, and stress with it

needs to come faster. tl;dr and don't jump unless you'd like to read my teenage rant.

FML.

I am really mad. I was doing a whole post summarizing Tower of God, I come back to edit it after posting Love Song, and it autosaves right after I ctrl-Z and it deletes the 5 detailed, perfect paragraphs that I fucking wrote. I'm really mad. Now it's just gone. Fuck my life.

Love Song MV World Premiere

Oh gosh. I didn't like this song so much when I reviewed it by itself the other day.

But audio versus the images, the MV surpasses expectations. It is perfect for the song. It is understated, elegant, not flashy, and just so.. calm?

It gives me a small feel of vintage television. Black and white, and it's all shot in one shot. One shot, all throughout. How amazing is that?! You can always trust YG Entertainment to outshoot the others with great care to packaging, images, audio, everything! First the special packaging for TONIGHT unique, with something that feels and looks a tad like an audio player. But now an expensive MV? So expensive, yet so.. beautiful. From allkpop, I heard that they had Hollywood type cameras in for this MV, and I can see why. And it is definitely worth it. It is simply different from the other KPOP mvs. It's beautiful.

Big Bang's Comeback(AGAIN?!)

Love Song, Stupid Liar, & Baby Don't Cry- great songs, made for a special edition of TONIGHT by Big Bang.

These new songs really are amazing, and they honestly beat the original TONIGHT by a huge landslide.

Love Song
A very romantic, soft feeling song that's somehow still quite upbeat and paced, with a good balance of lyrics, although I believe that Daesung and Seungri could have used more parts: so little, so insignificant. Makes meee madddddddd. Luckily, they do include more songs... But first, Love Song, of course. The best part of this song would have to be T.O.P's introduction- it's so slow, soft, and the instrumental is so underpowered, it lifts his voice and gives an impression of peace, happiness, and all hippie-voodoo lovable things possible. The rest of the song is fast paced, and honestly will get boring over time. Overall? Lives up to expectations, but I wish there wasn't so much "I hate this Love Song" included in it, because it's just not true! Definitely worth a listen compared to the horrible K-Pop releases coming out lately, though!

Next up, Stupid Liar.

Love the lullaby beginning, love it, could go with a little less of G-Dragon? I'm a GBias, but I don't really feel his voice in this one. However, I'm lovin' Daesung! The voice to die for, and Taeyang's part fits him well. Seungri's parts are also well placed. But GD in between isn't working out for me. T.O.P's rap works, but I feel that the song needs more of a balance, and less GD for all the chorus-y parts. The song doesn't quite fit him, and the feeling irks me to no extent, being a diehard VIP. :(

And finally, Baby Don't Cry (Daesung single!)

Retro instrumental feel.

Calm.

Reminds me of his Cotton Candy single!

^Which isn't good. I like my YG artists to have a little variety. I was hoping this would be a really strong solo, with power and emphasis, maybe a bit like GD's Heartbreaker except with ballads, and Daesung's deep, deep, beautiful voice. However, seeing as this is only a sample of things to come, I'm really hoping things get boosted. Take your time, and make the album good, D-lite.

If my opinions don't match your views, comment! I like to see other people's views. Don't be afraid! :)

-Michelle

Feeling tired lately.

I don't know why, but time is going by so slow, and so fast. My birthday was only last Saturday, and yet.. I keep feeling doubt. I've always wanted to make it into an awesome, great, prestigious university. But I don't think that wanting is quite good enough.

I need to open my eyes. I've been trying for all my life.

And it's just not working.

Maybe the day when I find a competent person in Sacramento, who has massive experience and is willing to tutor me slowly, will be the day that I realize: maybe it's possible. I can get into UC Davis. Maybe I can get to UCLA or UC Berkeley. A long reach, maybe Stanford.

But the truth is that I've always been a dreamer, and a hater. I'm vile, evil. Despicable. Yet, I think that I still have a chance, even where I'm at. At a school with such a lack, a horrible disregard for the future. A school so ugly and focused on grades, API scores, and all that mush. I wish I was near people that cared about others and about their futures as well. But I really need to stop limiting myself.

I hope that someday I'll be able to get into a prestigious college on a Computer Science major. Not because my parents say so, but because I can. And hell, if I can, then I will. And if I will, then I am. And if I am, then.. I'm already shooting towards the future.

Disappointingmentness & A New Read for Me

:x Last Saturday and this Friday. Boo.

So last Saturday we had our pre MESA competition. And well, we've got some crappy Algebra 2 teachers, because our entire league of sophomores didn't place in the competition at all for Team Math, and only one did for Solo Math because he's just crazy like that. So I assume we've got a lot of learning to do. At least I'm still passing my math classes, righty-o? My team did place for our balsawood glider for 9/10th grade though, and our other peoples in MESA managed to place in a variety of things, and in all 3 places for Geometry, so we've got good Geometry teachers instead. WoNdErFuL. yay~

So I've been reading a book called The Faery Reel: Tales from the Twilight Realm. It's a collection of short stories or poems about faeries or fairies, however you like to spell them. There's stories about faeries from Japan, Europe, America, and others, but it's incredibly interesting.

Wednesday or Thursday, I checked out the book plus another one by Amy Tan, called The Kitchen God's Wife. I left the other one in my locker and grabbed The Faery Reel to read on the bus. To my unluckiness, it was absolutely pouring outside! Horrible weather, for a normally sunnyside place. Whenever I haven't got my umbrella, the weather goes haywire. I brought it Friday and the weather went happy on me. Thanks for the rage, weather.

Anyways, I walked 2 blocks to the bus stop and waited about 10 minutes under a nearby porch to stay dry before the bus came. Then I went on the bus, plunked my backpack and lunch box on the ground, and took up a seat (two, now I think of it, maybe) while zipping out my copy of the story. I laid down reading the book while staying warm for 20 minutes until I got home, and it was an absolutely fascinating book. I actually just finished it today.

Anyways, I recommend it. It's perfect for a day when you're in need of inspiration and hope, and great on rainy days when you need something to brighten up. And awesomeitiousness when added in with hot chocolate. It's definitely a read better for teens, as the stories tend to edge towards that spectrum, with some about teenage love, some that are more like folk tales, and others. A great read for those in need of a curiosity boost.

Tower of God

As you all know, reading manga is one of my good hobbies, right? There isn't just manga though, there is also manhwa & manhua, respectively the Korean and Chinese equivalents of Japanese manga.

I find that manhwa tend to have sketchy art that is crisper that manga, and manhua are softer and prettier. I find that manhwa have a greater variety of plots, especially in webtoons via Naver or Daum, which are Korean net portals similar to how we would use Yahoo or Google.

One of my favorite manhwa-webtoon comics happens to be Tower of God. It's a mysterious story about a boy named 25th Baam who is someone we know almost nothing about- but his best friend, or more so, his love is Lahel, a girl who wants to travel up to the top of the "tower". Which is also called the Tower of God because reaching the top enables your any wish to be granted- as in the preview, you could have riches, fame, revenge, or power, or even more; making the tower a dangerous game all throughout.

A blue Void

A blue Void by anydeth featuring a ruffle dress

Summer mode, with the bright colors of salamanders, scarabs, and spring. hating on this lovely, lovely coldly rain of our city. The radiation must be pouring in.

Lately where I've been, we've simply had a torrent of rain. Everyone's assuming it's from the horrible radiation coming in from Japan, bless their poor hearts. Rain isn't nearly as bad for us, but I'm sure they might need the water resources, so if they need it, so it be. They've got a terrible situation and a radioactive mess of business to fix, which is totally not so pretty. I'll miss my fixes of manga, anime, J-drama, and J-pop, but the people come before the outsiders.


Anyways, this rain calls for a little blur of hope. Brightness means blue. Lots of it! The dress is more of a frilly, semi-formal dress type. Makes me think of .. a bright blueberry. The belt gives it a refined look, since it's just so.. wrinkly. :3 the clutch, gives a flowery look and adds to the look with a different shade of blue while still staying.. Wrinkly. The shoes do the same, and give a springy, jump start perspective on this bright spectacle. Vera Wang Princess is one of those wonderful, springy, sweet fragrances, so I've added it on to add more depth to the polyvore! :) An absolute necessity. Finally, there's a bright pink, black, and off-white cardigan- adds a change to the eyes, and a jacket in case one gets a little chilled over the course of your prom dance. It's cute, fashionable, and the pockets could look like penguins, huh. The color blocks give it a weird, structured view, and the belt is added on for its mosaic-like depth and as a cincher to keep the outfit giving a tight feel. Outfits worn out are not meant to be baggy, of course.

Goodnight Lullaby Inspired

Goodnight Lullaby Inspired by anydeth featuring a jacquard dress
GNL by Avril Lavigne inspired set :)

Avril recently released her new album called Goodnight Lullaby. It's definitely a great work of art! It's far more composed and soft compared to her last album, The Best Damn Thing. I especially adore Push, Smile, and Wish You Were Here.  It makes me think of love, regret, and overthinking.


In honor of her comeback! I've made a polyvore outfit. This is my first time using it, so I only used some of the top things that were shown. It's a soft and fluffy feel, like tulle or chiffon; the peach, sheer gray, and muted tone colors give an underrepresented feel to it. The nail polish gives a little pop. The outfit comes together to a perfect spring date outfit, like when you'd be outside with a Smile on your face with the leaves blooming and the flowers falling. :)

StumbleUpon

So pretty much, it's one of my favorite sites at the moment. I've found recipes, loads of stuff.. hopefully I'll get to find more stupidly awesome random things! :)